Hello Ellie,
I think you are misunderstanding me (no offense intended). This response is a clarification, not an argument (i.e. I'm not against you). I hope you don't ban me for my responses, as I value this forum greatly and would not want to lose access to it. I hope that I'll be able to prove myself as a Christian, and not some "fake it till you make it" member. Please consider my points.
1) I have always wanted to ask questions about the Bible. Before joining the forum, I asked Chris numerous questions about the Bible (salvation, church traditions, etc...) on Truth Social. This was before I repented, going back to around October of last year. As I told Chris, I was watching a CLE Chat and was interested in some of the conspiracies he mentioned, and I asked about them. As I have received answers on these topics, I'm back to asking questions pertaining to the Bible (as I have done since around October of last year). I don't know how I can prove it directly, but I assure you I'm not one to fake it until I make it. I've had questions (i.e. requests for clarification) for Chris for months now. As his articles influenced me greatly, I asked to join his church (once I found out that he had one) and was told to join the forum.
2) The reason I agree with what Chris teaches is that he bases his teaching on the Bible; I assure you it's not some pretense of adoration or anything. Why should I not agree with Chris? Even if I were an atheist, I would agree that Chris is correct when, say, he states that the Bible teaches that the Earth, or when he states that Christmas is rooted in pagan tradition.
3) I've always contacted Chris on Truth Social and asked him about Bible doctrine for months now. It's not something new that I've been doing. Here is how I have contacted Chris in chronological order: Truth Social (months ago), email (a few weeks ago), and forum (ever since I joined).
4) I should have made it more clear and phrased it differently: I viewed Chris's skepticism of my posting about conspiracies as more of a wake-up call to comfortably ask questions about the Bible again (similar to how Kenneth and he told me to relax and cease my use of formalities such as Mr. Johnson or Ms. Ellie). It expedited the frequency of my questions, as I previously tried to include as much as I can in a post before I post it. After his remarks, I figured that this forum is not focusing on one being meticulous regarding the questions asked, so I kind of "loosened up" and just asked my questions without "loaded" posts with multiple questions. I don't really ask questions about the Bible on this forum when they are simple (or asked before on the forum). I now see that my claim that " I have also begun, at the request of forum members, to ask questions that pertain to the Bible" misrepresents what others have told me, and it does not accurately represent my actions anyway, so I apologize for claiming this. This is similar to evolutionary biologist Ernst Haeckel's situation. In creating his forged embryos to support evolution, he sourced a man that had claimed that embryos of animals portray evolutionary history. Although this man had once claimed this, that is not what he truly believed. I feel that this situation is the same. Although I claimed that CLE members advised me to post questions about Bible (which I now know is not true), and that this advice led me to post questions about the Bible, that is not what I truly believe, and I hope that this response will clarify my true intentions.
5) To summarize my points, I've been asking Chris questions on the Bible for months (i.e. clarifications of his statements) before I even knew he had a forum, let alone a church. I assure you that it's not some pretense change of course on my part.
I agree with your statement, "And the fact that you think you were advised or told that you needed to ask Bible questions demonstrates that you don't understand the actual problem that was being addressed". I indeed did not understand what was going on, and I apologize for any false statement I made and any misunderstanding my responses caused.
I hope that I'll prove myself as a Christian member of this forum, and not some false convert. After all, it's my desire to join the CLE church. As I've apologized once more, I hope you view me as a Christian member of the forum as we proceed, and not some contentious false convert (which I assure you is not my nature whatsoever).
I know that I have displayed "inappropriate" behavior on this forum, but I hope that you guys will forgive me for any harm I may have caused.
I sincerely apologize for any wrong that I have done.
Thanks