To everyone with questions and feedback:
I am saved and very dedicated. There may not be evidence of my salvation in my introductory post because my post was very brief and my story is very long.
Re: Creation Liberty
"when I started my journey with Christ," would you share some more details about that?
When I first began to be drawn to Christ by God was when I was 21 or 22. I am 26 now. I wasn't immediately immersed into saved safety but blessed with being drawn to Christ over a number of years. I was homeless when I picked out a bible at the Shelter. I had serious demonic possession problems, curses to break, and a lot of trauma. I was essentially completely out of my mind, had extreme occult like delusions, and... well it's just difficult to explain.
Since then, through being drawn to Christ, I have made life changing decisions to continue toward Christ. I left a lesbian relationship: Not because it was convenient, because through study I learned God isn't lenient on homosexuality. I quit my bad habits, smoking tobacco and marijuana, and drinking. I was drinking a lot.
I did not know what deliverance was until around 1 or 2 years after the homeless part of my life. Since discovering deliverance I have had the power, love, and a sound mind. Timothy 1:7
Speaking of Timothy....
Re: Timothy
First off I should tell you that your hyperlink for (Guilt and Shame for sexual sins) does not work. I couldn't visit the site or see which preacher said any of that. I am extremely careful about which ministers, teachers, and preacher I listen to. Especially when it comes to the message of deliverance, because I think it is easy to get wrong, and do wrong. Also you're right, if deliverance (this includes the casting out of devils) is done wrongly, it can create MORE problems than before.
I want you to feel relieved that I do know how to distinguish the difference between deliverance and salvation, the casting out of devils and repenting of sins.
the deliverance CULT
I'm referring specifically to "The Last Reformation" run by some guy named "Torbin". It is a 501 C 3 Church that calls itself an "organization". Many people I have tried to become friendly with inside the deliverance mindset are familiar or even supporting of this "TLR". I call it a cult because I used to be a Mormon and there is something eerily similar...
When someone first told me about The Last Reformation, I had never heard of it. I thought, "Reformation? The reformation seems like it could be something good..." It took only a few searches to see that this is a sensationalist "deliverance" church ripping off the "Reformation" name.
I am also very suspicious of deliverance that ends with the one receiving deliverance being pinned down on the ground, or very distressed, saying "Get off Me! Get off Me" to the deliverance "ministers". That doesn't seem very natural or biblical.
Jesus addressed the Demon(s) identifying as Legion. Jesus spoke to the possessive devils or familiar spirits but did not need to restrain that man physically to do so.
A Legion is a Roman "Number" meaning 3000-6000. This story is in Mark 5.
Deliver people from their sins
Deliverance ministry is not delivering people from their sins. I do not have authority to deliver anyone from their sins, that is Jesus' role and responsibility.
We all would rather you talk about those things in your introduction now rather than later because we want to know if you are truly born-again in Christ. But, from what I'm reading so far, it more so sounds like your "dedication" and "trust" is in the fact that you stopped doing a list of sins rather than repent (have godly sorrow of your sin) and put your faith in Jesus Christ and his sacrifice on the cross for your sins.
I hear you. I really did not nuance much of my story. But please be reassured that I do repent. Dreams of the good life do not supersede repentance, I repent of what I do wrong. I do not go through this life self deceived.
Since we are doing feedback, I see you have wrote me a lengthy reply to my introduction. I'll just say that my perception is that you critically scrutinized my introduction and asked me to give you a detailed account. I feel dispirited. My hope is that I can regain my excitement and hope I can share what I have to say without having to include a lengthy nuance in every interaction.
Re: Jeanne
Thank you for the hyperlinks Jeanne! It the afternoon here now, I work swing shift so it is still sort of "late morning". I am excited to really give these hyperlinks my attention. I love to read and I like to align myself with accuracy to God's will and direction he has given. I will be visiting each of these as my time permits. Thanks again!
Rowan:
I have been vigilantly asked if I have repented. I can give a resounding "Yes". I affirm I have repented, I do repent, and I will repent. I also repent for my possible unwitting mistakes and ignorances. I will continue to repent for things I have done unwittingly or ignorantly.
not seeing any evidence of being born again
I was converted from a Homo-Pagan lifestyle to Christianity because from my experiences, the Homo-Pagan lifestyle leads to destruction. My life had brought me to the dead end of destruction. God could not hold back the destruction from falling onto me. I was unrepentant, sinful, and wicked. My life was so destroyed, in an attempt to get the help I needed (my family would not help me) I turned to God. That day I picked a bible out of the homeless shelter library in the womans dormitory is when I turned to him, desperate for help.
I was converted from Mainstream Christianity to the "fringe" ... (i.e. Goodbye Tax-exempt churches, thinking critically and comparing church teachings to the actual word of the bible, etc) ... converted from mainstream to fringe when God continued to draw me to him- even after I had mainstream Christianity. I was not satisfied. I am a critical thinker. I innately knew there was a standard to IDENTIFY and DISTINGUISH key factors of the Church. (my intuitive skills are gifts from God)
I was doing many searches, finding many warnings on false churches and teachers, apostasy, and taking the Word at face value. The word says what it means, and there is no "lost in translation" (i.e. homosexuality, womens roles, other common points of dissention)
It has really been a WALK from when I first started to now. But I have become very stringent on my biblical principles and biblical life ethos. I really do care about the "fine details", and that is why I have joined this forum. I did not nuance my story due to the time of day and my fatigue.
#drought
I included hashtag drought, because the State of Utah is currently experiencing the worst drought in 400 years, worse than the 1930s dustbowl drought. This is all according to the news, however Utah has struggled with drought before. This is a desert and there have been some strange weather patterns recently. And just as an additional note on that, my speculation is that the majority of grass laiden real estate is owned by the Mormons. A church house on every block, with the lushest, greenest lawns and foliage around..... In a desert.
I just added this because I felt like it.
Thanks for your reply!
Thank you everyone I hope you are having a nice day
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