Why are you trying to play church? That's my initial question because I was wondering why you joined us. Please do not misunderstand, it was not wrong to join, nor am I saying that we would not converse with you, but I could not figure out anything to say from your initial introduction post, so I was waiting for something like this to give me enough material to help you understand the contradictions you have already proposed in your writing.
I want you to understand that what religion you are a part of, and what church building you attend, and what bible version you use, and whether or not you read lexicons and concordances, and any other aspect of doctrine
DOES NOT MATTER if you are not born again in Christ. Your statement in your introduction said:
"I am a false convert, I kept telling myself deep inside that I was not but I can't lie to myself according to the Bible I am one."and also...
"I also have been having doubts if Jesus is the Christ and been thinking if Judaism may be true."http://www.creationliberty.com/forum/index.php?topic=1092.msg8860#msg8860None of those things you are asking about in this thread are going to help you. Until you have been born again in Christ, whether or not you talk with people on a Discord server is not going to matter in the slightest.
This is what matters:
Grief and godly sorrow of one's own wrongdoing, which is to understand the depravity and corrupt of oneself through sin, and then in humility, you believe on the Lord Jesus Christ for the remission (i.e. forgiveness) of sin, that He died on the cross and shed His blood for our souls, and was resurrected from the dead to sit on the right hand of God the Father to make intercession for us. That is how a man is born again.
That which is born of the flesh is flesh; and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit. Marvel not that I said unto thee, Ye must be born again.
-John 3:6-7Your statements demonstrate that you do not have faith in Christ. You do not believe in his divine nature as God, and because you do not believe that, it makes it impossible for you to believe that Christ did any of the things He said He did. (And it would make Him a liar because He spoke of His divine nature as God.) Because of that, you are not a Christian, which is why I think you left your belief listed as "Other" on your account.
Why do ye not understand my speech? even because ye cannot hear my word. Ye are of your father the devil, and the lusts of your father ye will do. He was a murderer from the beginning, and abode not in the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he speaketh a lie, he speaketh of his own: for he is a liar, and the father of it. And because I tell you the truth, ye believe me not. Which of you convinceth me of sin? And if I say the truth, why do ye not believe me? He that is of God heareth God's words: ye therefore hear them not, because ye are not of God.
-John 8:43-47I could understand an atheist joining our forum to have discussions with us, but what I cannot understand is why a churchgoer who is lukewarm, trying to appear to be a Christian on the outside, while inwardly in unbelief, would come here to try and get help to improve his outward appearance. That is nonsensical, and everyone here, I guarantee, cares enough about you to not let you get away with that, and to call you out on the contradictions.
I know thy works, that thou art neither cold nor hot: I would thou wert cold or hot. So then because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spue thee out of my mouth.
-Rev 3:15-16It will not help you to hang around Christians to give yourself an outward "Christian" appearance. It does no good at all to speak well of Jesus with the mouth, but have the heart far from Him.
This people draweth nigh unto me with their mouth, and honoureth me with their lips; but their heart is far from me.
-Mat 15:8
Jesus answered them, I told you, and ye believed not: the works that I do in my Father's name, they bear witness of me. But ye believe not, because ye are not of my sheep, as I said unto you. My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me: And I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand. My Father, which gave them me, is greater than all; and no man is able to pluck them out of my Father's hand. I and my Father are one.
-John 10:25-30If you do not want to believe Jesus Christ, that is your decision, and there is nothing any of us can do to change that. However, we are not going to treat you as brethren because, without Christ, you are counted among the pagans and other unbelievers, and therefore, we will preach to you the proper message of Christ that you might be saved, not answer specific questions about what types of people you should or should not be hanging out with because, if you believe those people are corrupt, then you are counted among them, which means separating yourself from them would be pointless.
God has already declared who He saves and draws close to:
The LORD is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit.
-Psa 34:18
For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast.
-Ephesians 2:8-9