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Law/Legal / Apricot seed seller taken down.

« on: December 03, 2019, 12:45:45 PM »

Went to try and find my the website I bought apricot seeds from and it was seized.

Looks like this was fairly recent.

Google "Jason Vale apricots from God" and it will bring up different news articles about it including a recent video interview with Jason from some MSM outlet called "Access Hollywood". https://youtu.be/KYk7sgx2zLI

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General Discussion / Joining a Union?

« on: October 15, 2019, 04:31:12 PM »

I'm kind of torn on this one. But I lean to a much greater degree of being anti Union.

I can already see the guilt trips in the future should I get hired in where I'm at.

The bottom line for me:

1.) It's anti free market for a Union.
2.) It seems to me a Union is just for rebellious workers and or lazy workers.

Am I wrong?

Was there ever a good time to have a Union?

I don't mind taking correction if I'm wrong.

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General Discussion / Rebuking a street preacher

« on: February 02, 2019, 11:38:31 AM »

This guy is full of false doctrine and has even went on to call me a devil and a demon in my first comment to him. I figured I would try one more time to reach him after I talked to Christopher because Christopher made mention about his belief on repentance is probably skewed, and it is. So below is the second conversation. I was will to even talk over the phone but I think I';m going to leave this one alone because his mind appears made up and he is coming off as very posh.

Benjamin Drew
13 hours ago
Okay, we got off on the wrong foot, now I know the core of your doctrine why you believe one can lose their salvation. Repentance, in the Bible is having grief and Godly sorrow towards God for sinning against Him and breaking is Laws.


Now I rejoice, not that ye were made sorry, but that ye sorrowed to repentance: for ye were made sorry after a godly manner, that ye might receive damage by us in nothing. For godly sorrow worketh repentance to salvation not to be repented of: but the sorrow of the world worketh death. For behold this selfsame thing, that ye sorrowed after a godly sort,
-2 Corinthians 7:9-11


No, we are not supposed to live in sin, like many do and use the "Once saved always saved" card to justify their sins. I wasn't attempting in anyway to justify sin in my last comment.


What I mean is, good fruit can not come from an evil tree and likewise bad fruit can not come from a good tree. Meaning, Many claim with their lips to be saved, but they never came to grief and Godly sorrow in repentance to be saved in the first place, Hence, they were never saved.


When one is born again, they will naturally forsake sin overtime as they grow in their walk and learn proper doctrine. That's why the Bible said to bring forth works meet for repentance. If theirs no real conversion or repentance,, again, they were never saved. Works are supposed be a result of repentance and salvation, because like you said, we can not pay the penalty ourselves, meaning our works can not save us.


Think of the parable of the sower and the seed that fell on good ground, that seed is not going to uproot itself and move to bad ground then uproot itself again and go to good ground. The parable of the sower is about false converts.


Remember what I said about sometimes people fail and slide back? Those who are truly born again Christ will go out and bring them back to repentance.  There's scripture to back this up is all I am trying to reasonably explain.  But most who slide back were never saved to begin with because, they never came to grief and Godlty sorrow of their wrong doing and never truly repented.


Repent means to be in grief and Godly sorrow, not to turn (In the context of the Bible). The turning will come naturally and one will not identify with their sin but rather do the works meet for repentance naturally. Repent has more than one meaning, but in the Bible, it's grief and Godly sorrow.


(Webster 1828 Dictionary) REPENT', verb intransitive [Latin re and paeniteo, from paena, pain. Gr. See Pain.]

1. To feel pain, sorrow or regret for something done or spoken; as, to repent that we have lost much time in idleness or sensual pleasure; to repent that we have injured or wounded the feelings of a friend. A person repents only of what he himself has done or said.


Luke 15:3-7 King James Version (KJV)
3 And he spake this parable unto them, saying,

4 What man of you, having an hundred sheep, if he lose one of them, doth not leave the ninety and nine in the wilderness, and go after that which is lost, until he find it?

5 And when he hath found it, he layeth it on his shoulders, rejoicing.

6 And when he cometh home, he calleth together his friends and neighbours, saying unto them, Rejoice with me; for I have found my sheep which was lost.

7 I say unto you, that likewise joy shall be in heaven over one sinner that repenteth, more than over ninety and nine just persons, which need no repentance.


I'm willing to talk on the phone, or skype so we can go over this.

His reply:

Raf Proclaims John1248
13 hours ago (edited)
Benjamin, i dont mind talking to you, but you have a heretic mentality, you read into vereses your doctrine

For example, you say the sower parable is about false converts, that is so far from true. The 2nd soil had growth, believed, and recievd the word with joy. Their issue arouse later, and it was their own fault it happened, they fell and were offended after being saved

God does not force backsliders to come back, that is a Calvinist heresy,  there are proven cases in scripture where backsliders didnt come back, and examples of backsliders that were commanded to repent, they were saved prior

Repent means stop sinning,  its the truth, i explained it in the audio, any other doctrine is heresy on this topic

I think you are a devil, yes, but i also love my neighbor while being honest, if you want some compassion, email me your number i will try to help you

And a link to his video. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hKLJidI7dO0&t=1s

I don't know what is is with so called CXhristians answering a matter before hearing it and being afraid to challenge their own belief system.

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Introduce Yourself / That was then, This is now. A life so changed.

« on: August 25, 2018, 08:46:15 PM »

Just my reintroduction and testimony for what it's worth. I've been in the Church since 2016.

I love you wife

What attitude! What grace! Look at this new streamlined body! It's going to my head! I got it. I just want to party. I wonder how fast I can go!!!!!!! Fresh attitude, blond steaks, man I got it all!

Let's run this puppy on alcohol and see what happens! I bet I can double my speed! Let's throw some black paint around those hazel blue head lights! WOW, SEXY! Whoops, don't forget to brush that grill clean. While I'm at it, I think I'll shave and pluck a wax job.

Dazzling!

Wow this paint job is tight! I can barely button it. Throw on some sexy accessories and some scent and I'm ready to take to the roads of life!!!! I'm going to push it further than I ever have!

Faster, faster!

See, looking good!

Even the guys like this hot rod!

I'm swinging through these curvy roads doing a 150 mph!

COME ON, LET'S GO, FASTER, FASTER! The hell with the consequences! I only live once! There is no tomorrow! It's the end of the world! The processor is over clocked running at top speed! WOW, look at those graphics! OOOO, that person is hot! I'm going to let this person take this hot rod for a spin! Man, you sure handle this beautifully. Take me out and open it up and see how tricked out this ride can be!

Wham it to the left, wham it to the right! We're going to party tonight!!!!

What's that up ahead?

STOP!!!!!

CRASH!



Off the ravine I go flipping and tumbling, emotional debris flying everywhere upon each bash of the rocks on the way down.

OH CRAP! There goes the heart bursting into flames.

Finally coming to a rest at the depth of this ravine, with emotional debris scattered everywhere around this hot rod. The flaming heart ignites an explosion of deep sadness.

I lay with my mind and soul all broken up at the bottom of this ravine with my thoughts all tattered and frayed. There's an eerie silence as the flames smolder themselves out.

I lay there looking up at the full moon through my busted soul with blood streaming down my face. I can feel my life slipping away. I'm paralyzed; no one knows I'm here. I'm actually dying!

My broken mind starts throwing all kind of memories and regrets in my heart.

Pour the darn salt in the wounds why don't you.

Man, I sure wish I was sitting at home with my wife and family.

I sure wish I could have been a better husband.

I cheated on my wife with men, and yet she gave me endless love.

I never spent enough time with her; I never showed her enough love.

I failed my daughter because I was too much within myself to even care.

I'll never get a chance again to take my grandson fishing.

GOD, PLEASE GIVE ME ONE MORE SHOT! I promise I can make it work! Not like this, not now, please god!

All I did was spend the weekends speeding with alcohol, AND NOW IT'S OVER.

I'm dying with no way to tell her I'm sorry.

I'm dying, and I never told her how much I love her.

I'm dying and there's no way to mend broken hearts that I broke.

What a way to go.

What a way to be remembered, as the cause of chaos and heartbreak.

I can't go back now because I'm going to die in this ravine and no one knows I'm down here.

Why didn't I spend more time with my grandson?

Why the hell did I get so selfish and only think of myself?

I know if I could have one more chance to live I could make a difference!

I'm going to die and there's nothing I can do to walk away from this accident.

I'm getting so cold.

It's freezing!

My god this pain is unbearable!

All I can think of is laying my wife on a bed of roses and making passionate love to her.

Just to hold her one more time.

I just want to run my finger gently across her eyebrow one more time.

God, please at least give me that!

As I enter the deeper stages of death, I begin to realize that most of the complaining I did throughout my life was over nothing at all.

All the whining and complaining didn't get me anywhere.

I guess it doesn't matter now.

It's over now, there is no coming back, I should have been a better person, husband, father and grandfather when I had time on my side and I just threw it all away.

My heart is fluttering and skipping beats!

My chest feels so tight!

God I feel so cold!

WIFE, I LOV.......

(1-19-2008)

One more drink to ease the pain.

Some may have a chuckle, calling my sorrow a lack of faith, I doubt they have ever faced true sadness fighting to live bare knuckles.

Tonight my ship sinks to the bottom of a beer can, wondering where I went wrong as a man.

Thoughts I cannot defend, broken hearts I feel powerless to mend, some days I wish life for me would just end.

But tonight I shall be comfortably numb, just like a rock, DUMB.

The storms of alcohol use has shifted gears, it no longer brings me joy, just hot tears.

For I can't bring back the ignorance of yesterday, I know too much now, there is no excuse nor nothing left to say.

Sometimes it feels like a heart break custom made just for me, feeling alone in a house full of people lost inside of me, you see?

Sometimes I even wonder if I dug far too deep, I can't find my way home, like a lost sheep.

I have far to much wisdom now, I can no longer lie to myself, I hope soon to walk off the stage of life and take a final bow.

For tomorrow doubled be my sorrow, a price of one night, numbness only borrowed.

God put eternity into my mind, I'm not suicidal, peace is my job to find.

 

Behind These Eyes

Behind these eyes, you can't see my pain.

Will my broken soul always be maimed?

Behind these eyes, reside thoughts I cannot defend.

Will there ever come a day when my broken heart will mend?

Behind these eyes, reside thoughts I cannot comprehend.

If I ever did, it would be a god send!

Behind these eyes, sometimes lives a lonely girl.

But she's often locked away because of this cruel world!

Behind these eyes, I feel so divided.

It's as if heaven and hell somehow collided!

Behind these eyes, there's the perfect storm.

Ripping my heart out since the day I was born!

Behind these eyes, sits a scarred brain.

I truly believe the other side shall remain!

Behind these eyes, you can't see me mourning.

When my female side takes control without warning.

Behind these eyes, you don't see my straight side go down the hatch!

For with her, I'm powerless to her power and I am no match!

Behind these eyes, you can't see her screaming for more!

She is a force that you can't ignore!

Behind these eyes, you may see a whore.

But hate will be your own demise and settle the score!

So as I write this poem for a hollow man, I pray to you Christ, forgive me and lend me a hand!

And as you look into my eyes thinking my mind is fried, just keep one
thing in mind, I WILL NOT BE DENIED! (1-9-2008)

That was then.

This is now.

My life hasn't been flipped upside down, but rather right side up. I moved from my so called home in Michigan and lost many material possessions in the process and almost my sanity. But all of it I am so grateful for because it was what was needed to clean out my life for the Lord Jesus Christ. I still have sin I struggle with like gluttony and covetousness just to name a couple.

I'm hear to bear witness that peace can be found for the repentant heart in Jesus Christ.

Christopher and His family has graciously opened their doors to me and moved me to Indiana to be with the ministry. I don't own much and am in a small room at the moment, but I've come to enjoy not owning much and being a minimalist. I have found the less I own the better my soul rests. It's a concept of satisfaction and gratitude with what I have and I pray the Lord keeps me on this path.

The place I came from was debauchery and misery. The thing is I helped create all that misery, now my sorrow is likened to a worm that slumbereth not.

I have lived a life without God in sin, perversion and debauchery, and I and my family have paid the price mostly (In my opinion) because of my failure as a Husband, father and grandfather. A husband and father is supposed to lead the wife and family unit to Jesus Christ. I didn't do that. I was a perverted bi-sexual, male to female transgender sodomite that reveled in my shame and debauchery thinking I was so sexy and intelligent. I'm here to tell you I'm a nobody that deserves the sorrow I face and the lake of fire for my transgressions of the Law of God.

I lived a very selfish life as a weekend drunkard who regarded not the things of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ nor did I take into consideration the damage I was doing to my wife and family because I was steeped in selfishness in many ways but especially with my time.

My wife now lays in a hospital, permanently as far as I can tell do to complications of diabetes, COPD and Kidney failure. I take my part in responsibility for that because even though I was in the home, most of the time, I wasn't there as a good husband should be. I didn't lead. I miss my wife so much. It pains me to my core to think of all the times I sat by myself in a drunken oblivion crying because I didn't have a vagina or some other perverted thing my imagination wanted to conjure up when my wife is in the next room. How many times I could have put that aside to be with her, and didn't, now I can't.

My daughter turned out to be a low self esteem fornicator. She dates men that she ought not to, they have all been swine. Including the pig she is with right now that has tried his best to bear false witness against me to have me thrown in prison. She has three kids that will more than likely be swallowed up by the world because she isn't there for them emotionally. Financially, yes, but she's not a good mother at all by Biblical standards. And why would she be? When she had a father who put on makeup and dressed in woman's clothing on the weekends going to nightclubs with her. I failed her as well and she's is reaping the rewards of my wickedness.

Want to know how pathetic I am? Those writings above were almost prophesy, yet I carried on till 2015. Dying inside a slow painful death. I had no where left to go in my mind. My sinful wicked ways were engulfing my heart set for destruction. I drank, I committed adultery with both men and women, I smoked pot, I hated my neighbor, I new nothing of biblical charity. My destruction was at hand. I began to see the finer and more subtle things in life, meaning I was seeing on a micro level the destruction I had caused and was continuing to cause. I even had to trash most of my former writings because of the fear of what it was doing to people.

How many people have I lead away from God with my pathetic rhetoric, whining and carrying on about tolerance for the transgenders and tolerance for pride and sin. I can't even repeat some of the down and dirty filth I used to write. I had to stop. I wished myself death. I hated myself then and I hate myself now and can't trust my own heart. God has forgiven me, but I don't think I bring myself to forgive me.

Was it God giving me repentance through my own writing? I'm afraid to say yes because I don't want to blaspheme Him.

There is an age of accountability, my wife and daughter will be held accountable in this life, reaping what they have sown. Meaning I don't take all the blame, but I accept a good chunk of it because I failed as a family unit leader. I can only preach the truth to them now in dire hopes they repent and won't have to be held accountable by God when they die.

Since 2014 I have really dug in and did my best to turn things around to no avail. The trailer we lived in was always a mess and dumpy. There was no peace to be had when the kids were allowed to fight and argue over trivial things kids fight about. There was no Godly correction from my daughter, only scorn has she shown those children. And part of that was from me also because I didn't have a lot of patience with children. It's kind of hard to work on things when everyone in the house isn't on the same page.

What else could I do?

I left.

So now you're probably wondering why I claim to have peace, yet my sorrow is ever present. Well, it's something you have to know. It's not something I believe can be imagined. I'm in peace because the Lord Jesus Christ gave me the ability to acknowledge the absolute truth of His word and the sin in my life. The world teaches against shame and sorrow, but I say nay (In agreement with the scriptures).

Ecclesiastes 7:2-4 King James Version (KJV)

2 It is better to go to the house of mourning, than to go to the house of feasting: for that is the end of all men; and the living will lay it to his heart.
3 Sorrow is better than laughter: for by the sadness of the countenance the heart is made better.
4 The heart of the wise is in the house of mourning; but the heart of fools is in the house of mirth.

When one is Born again in Christ who is the author and finisher of the faith, nothing can break that connection and all the sorrows, fear and worldly things begin to fade away because it is then you are sanctified from the world in the spirit and have promise of eternal life and paradise once we give up the ghost and leave our fleshly vessels. The sorrow is still there but it's a healthy sorrow. We should sorrow and be ashamed for the wickedness we have all committed before God who I might add has been long suffering. Like I said, I can't rightly explain it, you have to repent and see it for yourself.

Had it not been for Jesus Christ, I don't even want to imagine where I would be at now. It's been a life so changed. Thank you Christ for hearing my cries and showing me undeserving mercy.